I stopped posting in May. I was about to go to pre-deployment training and frankly felt like I was too conflicted to write about being a Dad. But currently, I am a NO-GO for deployment waiting for a waiver from Army National Guard Headquarters at the Pentagon to serve in Afghanistan over the age of 60.
My odds of deploying are now much lower than they were in May--though it was never a sure thing. And I will continue to be a father to all my kids no matter whether I go or not, so back to posting.